Well, saying no would just lead to more of the same problems: frustration, self-defeat, and broken music scores
Not to mention the anxiety.
And the feelings of insecurity and hopelessness.
So, was being happy with my voice — and appreciating it — really my way forward?
I felt a sense of calm and relief... and my inner voice was clear: "Yes!"
Yes, I can choose to love my own voice, even if it's not perfect.
Even if it feels bad.
And even if it doesn't always do what I want.
I began to feel a deep gratitude for my voice. And I felt a real sadness for how I'd been treating it for so long.
And for blaming it for not being what I thought it should be.
And always wanting it to be something else.
In fact, I apologized to my voice – I had that much guilt.